The Daily Grind

Several years ago, when my oldest was just an infant, I began blogging as a way to share life’s happenings with friends & family who were interested. I shared a lot of updates about motherhood and life and it was both cathartic and refreshing.

I delved into topics like depression, my love for coffee, and even human trafficking while blogging was still new. I didn’t have a large audience, but I never intended to have one.

Then I blogged about some very personal things in a manner (without details) that ruffled some big feathers. And when I heard about it, I let it get to me and I quit blogging.

Then life got busy with 2 daughters. And then a son. And then came learning challenges and a diagnosis of Asperger’s Syndrome (before the DSM-V changed it to Autism Spectrum Disorder).

And then our son required surgery, unexpectedly, and I went into Mama Bear mode taking care of him and managing a busy life.

I even stopped journaling at one point because I thought maybe someone could get ahold of my writings and they could eventually be used against me in some way. Some of this was due to my own anxiety and self-image issues.

HOWEVER, that has changed. I am no longer so concerned about what other people think – about me or my life choices. I care whether or not they badmouth me or talk about me behind my back, but only because my sense of Justice is pretty strong. Not because I think it impacts me directly or makes a difference in my life choices.

Some people believe that, as a Christian woman, I’m required to just bear everybody else’s needs and wants and that mine don’t matter.

That’s not true. I know better now.

I don’t have to care what other people think because my Father is King and I am his Princess daughter. He goes before and behind me, and He will fight for me. I believe this.

I do hope not to offend, but I cannot control everyone or their reactions. I can only control my response – and we can agree to disagree. I don’t live my life for anybody else and I only answer to my God.

I hope that today you feel Loved by the One who made you and that you know you are made worthy by His love.